A longing soul is not one to choose

Being in a state of lonelyness,
Where there is a constant reminder of how hurtful the world and other people can be,
I forget to be cautious when it come to love
I forget that Its something so fragile.

I loved you in a way friends should
I enjoyed our time together
And while ws were together
You were the only one
But I had feelings for another
And the thought of being with anyone before leaving
Was terrifying
So I hid those feelings from myself
And from you too.

But something happened before my journey
That I didn't expect
And what happened is my secret to tell
And my truth
And if you ask nicely
I can tell you the whole truth.
Not a hand me down wonder or thought
But the full truth.