.i need to be dissatisfied with these words... they are so bothersome that... i'm yet to begin a what... a where... an anywhere to claim suggestions of my claim being adamant.
a candle for the pagan gods: in their wake... for no reason other than to somehow tread on ground of borrowing inspiration...
i was called today by some incognito clerk in a factory of voice... she wanted to speak to a mr. "x"... i implored for the first name... ma- i can't pronounce it...
mateusz - i should have taught her a little instead of putting the phone done immediately: after all... she was going to sell me life insurance... i'm not a gambling man: i don't gamble on horses, i don't gamble on football teams... las vegas would still be a desert if i had my way...
i could have taught her a little: not that it matter: or that i could claim to be colour blind... i guess if you have experienced the onomatopoeia of sounds from a mouth who's **** is being ****** you'll be able to invite any known stressors relating to "race":
michelle obama's black and brown... my own? chocolate, cinnamon, a tease of cumin / coriander - opaque: matted sort of hues... glistening keynyan oily marooned esque tamarind concentrated...
in madame bovary flaubert wrote of a chemist's preference for blondes... brunette... let's go all out bonkers when it comes to interracial mingling utilising these architectural borrows: a house is a ***** a stadium etc. the limping phallus of an obelix or statue or a skyscraper...
i knew i was talking to a gooey tanning of khaki skin... it's not important in that it is important for the descriptive addition... i can't see the anglo-saxon way completely... i like the addition of sacrosanct / immoveable details of objects...
the middle ground: details of character and personality... to the point where there's a veil quasi-n.p.c. i think it's important that i'm hardly white: extremely: rubbing gammon pink raw fetish but given enough sunrises and sunsets and summers: i'm ol' iberian fake tan h'arab... that's me... black of what black... after having ****** one: with enough cocktails and wise choice of music... interracial that it was... here's me wishing to... what frankenstein never did: investing human ***** in a body of a wolf... at best an ape... for kicks! if i had enough money and enough seclusion... do you think i wouldn't want to attempt this experiment?
her name was lisa but i know she had the voice of a tinge more fuller than mine... you can tell what race speaks: sometimes these cues...
ask the extremes... a choir of Ursules: *** vox sanguinis Ursule... and a baptist church choir... you know who's singing...
the jewish dogs of genocide... such shadow paths... nothing to really celebrate... and yet from the slave trade... such exceptions to rules: the voices of blacks: celebrated in song... their ability to borrow instruments from a classical period and turn them into jazz... celebrated... all the physical prowess of the "blackies" celebrated in sport... the hebrews? who's celebrating the... voices of the 'ebrews? singing broken-******* at a ******* Bar Mitzvah?! pseudo-castrato?! this... this is where shadows give birth to labyrinths... they were not subjected to genocide... yet they... feel inclined to believe that: they have been... since... as ever... a small minority rises to the top... and doesn't possess the will of the people etc. *******...
king Casimir could have been ****** by the nazis... for giving them: shaky grounds to settle on... 1410 and still these dumb-polacks who converted to catholicism 400 years prior wed their ***** of a bride to a pagan lithuanian king...
that by 1410 there was still a pocket of paganism in europe... so large it required a teutonic mass and the first postal service to conquer it... that some dumb polacks stood their ground... would be later shamed for dealings with the ukrainians... because: hell... the bands of UPA... honestly? the flag does it justice... not this pristine: blue above and yellow below... red above... black below...
for some reason i seem to be bombarded with history snippets... mind you... years in an english catholic school and the best we got was... the end of anglo-saxon england... philip augustus of the capetians... oh most certainly: fixture detailing edward the confessor... it's not like we didn't learn a "censored" history... i suppose i have to learn "my" own...
but... in all... honesty? i'm going against the hoarders... those who hoard history rarely allow anyone to learn anything from it... therefore, it just so happens... that it might have to be repeated...
i should just asked: can you replace that Z with a H... wouldn't that help: mateush?
it's hardly a special... math-of-few... for few for everyone... i just want to hear all that baptist soul from the depths of auschwitz... ceelo green: music to my soul... a slave with gangrene blues in shackles... later celebrated: but of course... the suspect hebrew intellect... as ever...
it's not so visible it's not a singing voice... it's not a body readied for the hunt or some basket and ball... and the dangling aztec project of loop loop let's grow some gold... i imagine the best ****-buddies... though... she would tell me... i will keep you forever... i will ease up the ******* strain too... but i promise you: i will never let go... hell! i'd be like... Elisheba! i'll give up my ******* for that sort of love... i just imagine: the day i was married to a god to a woman to a monogamy holy swan project... i'd have my ******* turned into a snippet of "history"...
i did have a cultish idea only two days ago on my usual quasi-marathon... one will never walk with one's head covered beneath trees... one will always take off one's hood one will always take off one's kippah when walking beneath trees... oh imagine! the sunlight and the cranium of all these crows of trees!
i have to imagine such cultish quirks... i'm not yet reconverted to my abandoned catholicism... little chance of that... if i were pleading for a church wedding... i'd be required a confirmation... me? i'd much rather... ahem... to be circumcised when wedding someone... all the ******* in the world and cocktails of *****...
here i was listening to some saint Ursula chants... now i'm back listening to: cee lo green's music to my soul... any music from aushwitz? any... wumpscut:? any bunkertor sieben!
oi oi! here's a bunch that just wants to talk and randomly chant bogus rhymes! d.j.! give us the blooooooz-snooooooze!
Hannah? how is that? any sha! schtill! gaining pop frequency status?! not enough Palestinian paint-on plum hit targets... not enough experienced collateral? counter the suicide squad... my pike! my pike's your pike! oh no no... your pike's my dracula! my ottoman keeper... romanian... sloth for words... loves his toothpicks with a bite first... canopy expert... or so i heard...
this felicity thrill of language going south of: westminster... yes... the south of London: some people do desire... staging a... what's two weeks called? formally? a fortnight... ah... honeymoons' a ******* sweeper...
either a blyck ******* the burner of my ribcage of a... sacred hebrew pride... one which would come with a leash and i would lose the ability to *******: one who i would wed to be circumcised...
unicorns and siamese twin serial killers! bright with a fire of dance from a "blackened" voice - the entire angelic choir has to be: "bleak": blyck... bLACK... you ******* are pushing the ****** can down some "other" avenue of: pseudo-somali ***-par... ethiopian...
your voices are better inscribed in song... to have this lackey body take to jig than anything: spontaneously animated: but like the riddle for the rest of us... the no man's land of average achievers...
for those of us who woken up with your voices in our heads... and bodies disembodied... sacrificed to the rhythm... to having to face this sterile environment of lacklustre... these bombs of well assured... verbiage comforts peppered with grecian prefixes...
but it's one thing to play basketball with me... quiet another: and i play the opposing "team's" nuances: i'm supposed to feed this green hydra of jealousy... it was never about the heart of Macbeth... i was always supposed to earn the earnest of a progeny...
what songs from aushwitz?! from the sentenced to a dodo project... not kept as slaves that would otherwise tier their toll above mere stature of plumbing: god... i have a beard... it will never "miraculously" turn into a ******* violin whether or not i fiddle with it...
a tier above the english moors... there's this fibrous land of the scots... i have lived in edinburgh.. but i am not deceived by th deserving comforts it provided...
the blacks feel outrage... for being slaves... while the jews sloth... in sullentry: for being subjected to a genocide... makes the mind boggle and ask for a wilderness... who is to become this... voicerous exemplar!
not listening to the h'american project... i would had i... enough anglo-saxon boiling blood in me...
come: revise me... i am yet to find myself astouded from the output of those living: as i cower for inspiration and grace of those bound to the serenity... of all things passed...
from among the living i am... lasting with concern for mountains foddling when egg-shells are crushed with the graces of ballerinas... but not! stampedes of wilderbeasts!
this is now! this borrowed time i have to imitate grief for the liberals... bleach me! have me scare a sacred ritual of time... i will, have... retained... my... feet! the people and their democracy can have their sway and their own litanies: their ditto-heads and what's awaiting: their cannibalism: self-proclaimed redemption into reclusion... but i, will, have... my feet... with which to walk... and imitate: ploughing a field... i will have the wind for music!
i will have all these subtle intricacies: for concern of detail: i will not find myself celebrated... hardly: that i must... i will not have been born from this hearth from this... gladly besotten first of breath... not so... gladly inquiring their posit of rooting...
let's just speak plain... among the poets... the priests... the prostitutes... and the hebrews... i of a 6ft2 and bulwark form... could... compensate... and the psychiatrists... as a child i did have a wild idea... to procreate human ***** with monkeys... with wolves... and wait for the results...
it's not like interracial adverts for these newly achieved status quo utopia bid me any luck... a nigel: or a forkin' callin' it "inns"... once you have had your interracial: and all that ******* rattle... there's no thai surprise or a japanese porcelain "girl"...
enough of a walk come tomorrow and enough sleep: promise me! no dreaming architecture! i don't like pretending / faking death with sleep with promises of disguises stolen light... with the creases of grieving for dreams... it's enough that i have an over-worked sympathy for the faculty of memory and all that cameo cinema... forget me attempting sleep with an advent of dreams.