did you tell her about me? of the pain i caused you? of my problems that you no longer wanted to fix? or of the ******* heart of yours i broke. did you tell her how i TRANSFERED for YOU left all MY friends to please YOU or did you tell her about the call at 4 A.M. because I had a nightmare and needed to talk to someone, to hear my best friend's voice tell me "it's okay olivia, it was just a dream" or how i asked you to send me sad things so that i would force myself to cry, because i hadn't cried in months and wanted to feel SOMETHING other than numb or how we stayed up until 3 A.M. in Germany trying to solve this unsolvable mess, and you cried and i cried. everything was so ****** up or all the red mango's i put on your doorstep as a peace offering.
you knew me, but you didnt and that's something i still can't figure out you knew how to manipulate me into thinking it was the best choice for US. you loved using "us" but you never ******* encouraged me or made me feel PROUD I showed you my ****** poetry and you just "hmph-ed" you ******* HMPH-ED Awhile ago I felt like I was drowing. And I didn't want to come up and show my face to you, to my mom, to anyone who mattered you mattered to me, c. you mattered. but now, my priorities lie in gaining back everything you put away in a box that tiny little box you labeled branded with your name