I think im losing my mind

My brain hurts behind my eye

At the end of each day talking to you

I ask myself why?

Try & try just to die

Falling behind in life

The feeling of knives

Too deep in my back

My last vision; the sky

Why oh why

Must the bad keep on

When those who fight

Struggle to dream calm

When my soul darkens

Ill look at you

Damning you to see life in MY shoes

Maybe youll see yourself, the world? Its heart?

If id known you were the devil

I'd've walked away from the start

Nasty taste in my mouth

Your name. So ****

WHO THE **** SAID YOU COULD HAVE ME

Or let alone,  my thoughts

I gave you everything

What's left? The dark?

It's the room you left me in

When you stood and took haste

Ashamed of yourself & me of my face

One look at it and all i see are mistakes

Hurt in my eyes. And my back? A stake

Memories of you, a year ago on this date

I'm holding back tears

Cuz i fear you ****** up fate

I held on so tight

And you? Late

Sitting up after hours thinking of those days

That turned into weeks that added to months

...i remember what it felt like

To hold your hand, Once.

Soil me soil my...

I wish you'd only apologize

For turning all blind eyes.