Someone I use to say I love Someone I use to say I wanna be But now I look at it with eyes with blades I use to blame u for the reason that I quit On happiness and the only thing that made me Now I locked myself up Not one tear every leaves Now my hatred for you is as hard as my fist Now I wish how u would leave Bc at least then I hope I'll see straight Hopefully be happy another day Abuse of alcohol and drugs Trying to pick 18 year olds when you're 40 Only thinking of himself And I think I wanted to be like this Be a drug addict who abuses alcohol And try's to get girls my age Divided by 2 Now I realize I was blinded and that won't happen again Keep my back against the wall and slugging fools Not thinking about walking bc once I do Well then someone can come up from behind and end me there And whenever I look in a mirror I wanna scream Disgusted by what I see I can't believe it He very thing I despise if become **** how could this happen Disappointed suicide seems like an option Wait till alone Grabs a knife And goes to cut Stops and breaks down crying Alone