As a matter of forethought, today marks what would my wedding anniversary with my ex-husband. Six years it would have been today. We have quite a story to tell but sparing the details of our demise, I felt this day warranted something said. And so this is my goodbye to him, what would have been, and in the same vein; what has been as well:

Part of me felt I had so much to say,
So many grandiose words to fill the page.
Instead I find that all I care to say,
Is nothing more than a simple good-bye.

I’d like to say thank you,
For teaching me so much.
Regardless of what your intentions were,
You’ve shown me more than enough.

You convinced me that I was dependent,
That I could nothing on my own.
When in truth the last two years I’ve spent,
Discovering the independence I had all along.

In so many words you labeled me
As someone of lesser value than you,
But now I’m learning to see
The depth of that untruth.

I begged you to truly need me,
Not to regard me as an accessory
Yet you never seemed to understand
How much your disregard damaged me.

But I’m past the point of begging,
Past the point of walking away.
I’ve realized now the fulfillment that comes
When someone truly wants you to stay.

So on this anniversary of what was previously a happy day,
The starting point of forever we said
I close this chapter of you and me, in the simplest of ways
As the end of the beginning
And today my final words to you will be read.
Everything left unspoken, will finally be loosed on the page
Then through the flames they will come to an end
And with that my final goodbye to the now ex-husband
That I once called my best friend.

Grace
01/16/2016