At this very moment my close friend is sitting on the couch
Next to my brother
Arms wrapped around each other
Not even trying to hide it.

At this very moment I am up in my room
Talking to my brother's 17 year old friend
Living in a nightmare that never ends
And I'm lost

Lost in my head
Lost in love
With a boy who just wants ***
It's a long story
Someday I'll tell you the rest