What's she's feeling shows on her skin this self harm game she'll never win. She enjoys it when she sin's. You could call her a sinner or a cutter. But it won't stop her from taking that drug or blade for another. Her mind she got from her mother. But the pain is like any other praying to her father, she's asking, "how do i recover? why do i even bother? should i scream louder?". Or will they yell at her for crying wolf? calling her a fool because they couldn't understand her "help". They never understood how she felt they always believed someone else like the medicine on her shelf. So she killed herself.