I dont know how i got here But i knew this was coming I looked at him His eyes are closed Naked under the sheets Sleeping peacefully I want to touch him but i can't And i won't Cause its not right He left me Never knew the reason why And then after all these months he came back Still no explanation I am sick of it Whenever he looks at me I see it His eyes shine As if i am holding the stars And hanging the moon Then why cant he make me feel that I knew from the very first That we are not compatible How could we When everything is wrong with us Its toxic But then why i feel like Its him only him that i can love I love him but i cant give up easily I want to touch his face Kiss his lips He has dark circles under his eyes Maybe from overworking He is an insominac But i have never seen He always says it that when he is with me He sleeps peacefully I cant do this anymore His eye brows are forming a frown Maybe he found out that i am staring at him He opens his eyes He looks at me The same glimmering eyes The same look "Are you ok" He asks After all these things he did to me He still asks me that "I want to go back " I say coz i know i cant control myself anymore He is still looking at me His face without any expression Deep down i know what he is feeling He is hurt His is having a turmoil inside He gets up the steets are not enough to cover him any more I am scared that he will get furious But he never does "Please dont , give me a chance i promise i wont mess up this time" For the first time i saw something He never begs ,never And he is doing it to me His face showing uncertainty He is older than me But right now i know i am the bigger here I dont trust myself to answer He is not looking at me His head is tilted downwords I saw him flinch when i touch him He is scared "Ok" i can't recognize my voice He looks at me His eyes are watery A tear starts to fall He never cries He always said that crying is for the weak But why now I touch his face " i love you" He says He knew i wont answer And i kiss him His lips touch mine I want to cry Cause i know i am going to regret it But i am taking the risk I love you I love you I love you He says it again and again Despite of knowing He wont get this in return We kiss and we kiss and we kiss.