What if i die at 12pm
What if i die at 6pm
What if i die at 00
What if i die at 00:02am
Would that make it just another death
Would i be just one less out of billions
Would i be graced by my "friends" presence
Would i be privileged to hear them mourn and fake cries?
Would i be at the mercies of strong men carrying my limp body
Would i be graced by your presence
Yes you
Would you cry endlessly for me?
Would you dent up the walls because of me?
Would you growl out your frustration because of me?
Would you feel broken, shattered because of me?
Would you zone out, loose concentration because of me?
Would you walk in the rain because of me?
Would you shut out the world because of me?
Would you defend me?
Would you tell them that the world was cruel to me?
Would you tell them that i tried so hard?
Or would you tell them i was stupid
That i wanted a nonexistent fairly tale
That i was suffering from depression
That i was a ****** escaping reality
That i wasn't good enough
That i was useless
That i was worthless
Tell me, yes you
Tell me
But for now what if
What if i die now?  
          -... The black pen chronicles
©kiddoh