it scares me when i get this way my mind can shut off i block it all out and it suddenly feels like the real me
no goofiness fills these bones no laughter in this soul just numb automatic hardship
it's like i've been through something my souls been trying to come to terms with the last 22Β Β years it's like i've been trying to scream yet when i sit and think my mind can't stop my mouth can't speak my words are weak
i'll laugh it off giggly me that's who they know she's who i'll be