I leave my dishes ***** so I have nothing to eat from,
Sadness makes me hungry and I dont want to be fat.
I dont shower until I'm crawling out of my skin
Because then I have an excuse to avoid people.
I sleep
So I can dream of better days
But in my nightmares you're there anyway,
Following me all through the night
Until I awake tired, unrested.
I'm a fool.
I stand before my mirror in the sunrise
And beg myself
Forgiveness for failure,
But I drop my gaze,
And all I can see is the darkness of the drain,
And little bits of myself circling it.