It’s something I don’t feel anymore
I can’t escape
The voices
The people
Everyone around me
They don’t care
At least most of them
I’m just a bother to them
I don’t have many friends
And right now
It seems I don’t have any that want to
Be there for me
I can’t talk about what’s wrong in my life
Without them leaving me on open
They don’t ask
To make sure I’m okay
I’ve been having
Awful thoughts lately
My hope is the only thing keeping me
From acting on them
Who would care if I was gone?
You never know
I know maybe two people who would be
Upset
That I left them
But I can’t even get out of bed
Anymore
I’m so tired
Of feeling sad
And sick
Wondering
Why they hate me
Why I can’t be normal
Why I can’t even be loved by the ones
That meant so much to me
They turned into
Bullies
And liars
He turned into an abuser
She stopped caring about my life
And I’m not sure about you
Because you don’t want to hurt me
And I don’t want to hurt you
Because you mean a lot
Even if I don’t mean a lot
To anyone else
I’m sorry