gave you the letter
I spent an hour writing
at 1am
the night before
gave you a hug
that felt a little rushed
because my mind
was still processing what was happening
but as I sat down
on that cold hard seat
of the ever so slow R train
it just hit me
You are forever gone.
and it reminded me
of what my teacher had once said:
"It takes a while for the heart to catch up with the mind."