The abstraction of that day was ironical.
The sun shone and yet I felt no warmth.
The underlying freeze forever coating my flesh made it so.
The perpetual aura of filth that accompanied death,
that integrated throughout my protective membrane,
made me trash,
an anomaly cast into the world’s garden.
I had once heard the term of life described as a savage garden.
Indeed the sardonic cynicism of the very phrase
made me to feel like a worm weaving between each green shoot.
I am the necessary horror,
and my only purpose
is to find the dying flower wrinkling about the edges,
smudging the atmosphere of closeted peace,
or wrapping myself around a ****
that threatens the delicate balance
between
what humans choose to see
and what is tangible.
In this I strive for perfection.
I am the worm,
the earthen worm
sliding amongst the filth
and nutrient of soil.
And yet still I am the gardener
wielding my *** to rake out
plants that give the impression of being beautiful.
Yet appearances can never hide the truth,
and like I,
the stench of filth
and stagnated death (me!)
always hovers over those who think themselves
above the rest.