i remember being under the illusion that
i've fallen for you
and now that i've come to think of it...
why DID i fall for you anyway?

i came to realize that i never really fell for you
if i had, i'm sure i'd remember why

although
you were there during times i never thought you'd stay
and you remained through the days i felt like
i was slowly losing myself

so is that enough for me
to think i had loved you?
or were you just the reason i used
to keep living for myself?

the selfishness never fades
and even so
neither did you
but then again.. is that enough to say i loved you?