It's 2:14 in the morning right now. The soft chatter of a commercial plays in the background. I can hear the gusty wind but it surely won't bring me down tonight. I have watched five episodes of Carrie Diaries in a row and I have mixed feelings about the show but MY GOD ARE ALL THE DRESSES JUST PERFECT! Anyway, my left eye is starting to see fuzzy and I feel I should give in to some sleep for once. I began to think about people and things and how that's all there was to it. I am a person and this is a thing! To be completely honest, I thought about you and how I really don't want us to be anything more than friends I don't feel that way about you. I thought about you, a fleeting yet the very best of my friend whose return wasn't guaranteed. I wish you didn't have to leave. I thought about the new guy and how my mother seemed genuinely happy today. I'm happy for her. I thought about our plans for tomorrow and the promises that we had made. I hope you won't break them. I thought of it all yet only a couple minutes seemed to have passed me. As I laid back on my extremely childish heart-covered pillow and sheets, I realized that for just now, I'm okay.