Growing up, a “sorry” was the paper-thin line between “they didn’t scream too much today” or “crying myself to sleep because it’s 3 am and we’ve been fighting for hours and I literally got nothing more to give” I’m sorry, I’m trying to change that
Yelling triggers my anxiety so badly, it doesn’t matter if you yell at me saying you just won a million dollars, I’ll still cry. My parents screamed at me until I was scared they’d hurt me I’m sorry, I’m trying to change that
I can’t stand people trying to touch my face, I flinch and try to get away. That’s what happens when someone’s touch once left marks I’m sorry, I’m trying to change that
If I were to tell my parents about how ******* tired I was of living they’d just tell me to stop overreacting. That’s why I ignore my mental health until I’m literally dead inside I’m sorry, I’m trying to change that
When someone asks me something it’s super hard for me to say “yes” or “no” because whatever I would answer I would either get called “spoiled” or “ungrateful”. And due to my parents forcing and shaming me to say “thank you” it’s now super hard for me to say it I’m sorry, I’m trying to change that
My parents used to leave me on read because they got “tired of dealing with me and my overdramatized feelings”, that’s why I freak out when I’m left on read I’m sorry, I’m trying to change that
But I’m still a work in progress And I might never be ready