stop wanting to be someone else so badly you ache and mourn for yourself you don't need to do that anymore you are wonderful just the way you are not perfect, that word is awful nothing is perfect not even you, but you're pretty close you are you be the best you love yourself love your flaws, fat isn't the worst thing to be you are a lot better than a lot of people in some ways although it's not good to say that you are equal to everyone