It's hard
To change
How you vocalize your mind
It's hard
when every poem has been pain
It's hard
When your mind
Doesn't process how it used to
I used to scream on pages
It's been so long
Since I felt lost
No?
It's been so long
since I felt empty.
I can empty my mind without poetry
I have grown
My old poems are beautiful.
Am I no longer like that?
Is this dread?
I dont know
But it's been so long
Since I had anything to empty
I miss these pages of poems
But
I dont miss being like that?
Who am I now?
I dont know
But it's time
Time I learn to write
From a new perspective