Don't cry
Don't cave
Don't
Absolutely never
Become maniac
In their presence

The pressure is there
But fall apart when no one is looking
Have those thoughts while
No one is there to care

Care for yourself in those times
Take a shower
Wash it off

Most people seem to be able to cry
When in the shower

Their safe place i guess

But me

It doesnt come so easy
All the water everywhere and all
As if everything along with me
Drowning

My mania catches up
Something i hate having
I hate dealing with
I hate having to try to explain
To try to see understanding in others eyes

To see a future along side someone

Someone that can help me.