sometimes i wish
i was one of Those Girls
with one of Those Bodies.

and i know that i'm
cute
and i
like me
i just
can't stop seeing
what model
attracts
i am ******
with sight

my tv
tells me
who to be
how to smile
how to be
and all the girls
that prance around
little *** toys
with insatiable hunger
and fake eyelashes
want to draw me in
so they can beat me
i am
pretty
but not
****
and ****
is what sells

i think love is a nice idea
in books
and
occasionally movies
but i do not
believe in it
i am too old.