all these thoughts
but none cohesive enough
to understand
all this stuff

what is this feeling
a heavy chest
why am never
doing my best

trying to write these feelings out
cannot believe this is still happening
the past memories in my head
keep on panning

is this a sign
or is this me
is this temporary
will this feeling ever flee

I keep trying
I have no other choice
settle down
unscramble the noise