I treaded through the snow Lost no limbs Heart thumping to the tempo of my feet Step after step My eyes as frozen as the foreboding tundra ahead of me I stopped suddenly, Eerily, Legs stiffened like The sporadic pale wheat stalks growing fruitfully across my neck I looked around and suddenly found myself on the other side ravished with the devastation that the Winder ruthlessly spread using it's red nose and trembling fingers Black solar eclipse eyes Pulsating in and out Teasing time Altering Space and the earth and your carnivorous smile your red vine lips rosy cheeks blazing with temptation the red apple the cooing goosebumps erupting on your forearms from the devils careful finger work I thought it was intimacy but it was only a touch without thought without feeling without a future or past Some moment that stood out amongst the millions of others that lit up your Christmas trees and held your hand when you were sick Said the I love you's over and over until my Heart was full and disgusted over and over Until I felt my stomach disintegrating into soil that can never be fertile for You or Them It's a patch in a quilt that stays face down cold and muddled on the bed that no human body except yours can sleep in I see you, trying to, interpret the tail coats of my words when you can't even find their source Bathroom stalls coated with my guilt Two flushes hand washing Thorough You're Thorough You pick up your purse the clink of the gold chain slaps the floor You exit through the door I'm sweating profusely and I pray that if I fall down and onto the murky salmon tile it's only when I hear the faded clunk of your heels making their way down the hallway Give me some god ****** dignity
gone
The god ****** dignity you washed into the sink that sits in front of my mauve plastic bubble just to mock me
Salmon pink tile that kissed the fangs of a thousand vicious hees Dead in an era I wasn't even born into
The sun is in my hands and I have no more feelings