When you weren't here and things seemed to be over, I would lay in my bed and imagine that you were still here. I would picture you walking around my apartment with the cutest smile on your face and I would watch you go about your business until I finally couldn't take being away from you anymore and I would say, "baby! Come here! " and you would quickly turn around and say, "mm mmmm" but you would start to walk towards me anyway and you couldn't tell, but my heart was starting to beat faster. I would smile with anticipation until you finally reached the bed and I would sit up and wrap my arms around your shoulders and gently pull you down with me. Even though this was all just in my imagination,  I swore that I could feel your breath upon my shoulder and I could taste your skin as I softly kissed it. For a while that was the only way I was able to sleep. I had to imagine that you were still with me. I always knew that I loved you but now I know that it's more than that. I need you. I want to spend my life with you.  I no longer want to be away from you. I'm ready to do everything I can to make you happy, to make you feel loved. You are so special to me, you are the reason I smile everyday. Everything in me is drawn to you.. you make me feel alive again..