I look forward to waking up at 3 am now
And the long walk
Across muddy fields
Amidst overgrown grass
Alone on the deserted road
Your thoughts give me company

Will You be there today, I wonder….
The moon shines above amidst the clouds
Dark shadows play hide and seek with the light
Just as You with me

I try to steal fleeting sidelong glances
Half hoping that You wont’t notice
And half, that You might !

I’m not even sure why I look in Your direction
What exactly am I looking for ?
Why is it so comforting to find You
Always there.. I am so proud of you.. It inspires me so much !

I try to even stop my heart from beating too loud
Just so that I can listen to you
Chanting ever so softly
I pray
And I look away

But the restlessness inside me
Sweeps my thoughts right back across to You
No matter how I coax and cajole my mind
Its like struggling to swim upstream in the waters of the Ganga

I’ve tried
To rationalise
And philosophise
And demonise
And to swim and to drown the feelings away

But it’s no use pretending anymore

I’ve begun to like green
And black
And bracelets
And thumb rings