I fear people
people I fear
I want to be close but can't stand to be near
I fake the smiles
I fake the words
I talk but I talk only to be heard
Can you see through this
This that I do
Or am I again wasting
Wasting my words upon you
Why do you come
What do you think you see
Do you actually believe that I wait for your company
When sober of mind I care not for you
It's only when  the thirst comes do I seem to be true
It's sad to say but I am unlike you
I sit in my thoughts
And you I see through
You all seem the same
You laugh as you chew
I fear my fear turns hatred towards you
Hatred
Hatred I hate
For the love in my heart never reaches the gate
For fear
For fear I say
Will always push you people away
Wish I was different
Sometimes wish I was you
Wish
I did wish
Now I'm regretting it too
You won't leave me alone
You knock at my door
You think I am honest
And possibly pure
Do I laugh or do I cry
Did I deceive you
Did I try?
I wonder at times if you do the same
Do I carry a guilt that shouldn't have shame?