Its funny. Its really funny. How no one notices my struggling until I start literally falling apart at the seems and I am not longer taking care of everyone else around me. When I start being late for things and falling asleep in the car. When I can no longer do everything that everyone wants. That is when people start to notice. Then they simply want me to be better so that I can start take care of them some more. And no one wants me to be better to myself simply give them everything that they want. Isn't it funny.