the feeling of struggling for months from inner turmoil chained to a system the wrong cogs being turned in my head grinding, sparking, creating embers of declining mental state. But at last, i’m met with a break and a relief from long lived writer’s block. while fatigue clings at the skin under my eyes, leaving bruises of sleepless nights and tireless structured writing. i struggle but it feels as though the cocoon which kept me captive for so long is sliding away from me and i’m regaining strength to fight free perhaps this opportunity to write is not because i’m tired perhaps it’s allowed me to breathe