Draped in impeccable white,
Today, you lie, oblivious to
Welled-up tears and the tight
Feeling in the chest of a few
Who never could see
Why you, of all, would depart
So soon, without a reason to flee,
Leaving behind one broken heart
Than all the grieving ones...
Baby, you were so little, innocent,
The eyes behind those closed lids once
Twinkled beseechingly in consent
When I called you to finish your cereal...
Never did you say your dislikes
But today, you are free for real,
In my throat, the reality strikes...
Baby, you were so tiny and lovable!
But God took you back before you grew...
Your two-year-old lips were just able
To call me 'Mama'; oh, take me with you!
Your cute fingers held onto my dress
The moment I let your hand go...
To me you always press
In fear, uncertainty and woe
Of being alone in the world,
And now, you made me alone...
Like a tornado, my dreams swirled
Because, leaving Mama, you're gone...
To gather you up, my arms tremble,
To kiss you, my lips quiver,
To ruffle your hair, my fingers fumble,
But my tears just form a river...
Why did I let you go, my baby,
To crush beneath tires larger than you...?
Why couldn't I save you, my baby,
From such pain that you went through...?
Why did I let you be killed
When you were a part of me...
My chest is getting filled
With guilt; my head with insanity...
Your plays, your voice and presence
Were the greatest comfort I had...
Your need, your fears and innocence
Make your absence more sad...
Still, as you lie there in peace,
I'm screaming my sorrows, my pain...
For once, I know what loneliness is;
Time, please go back again...

March 21st,2010