There is a great deal of depression in my soul, something that happen to me long ago, that gave me a lifetime of pain that almost made me go into sain, and it will be he I give all the blame, for all this pain. oh, how this body aches, I know nobody truly knows me if they did would do anything to push them away. Dark Angel has overtaken over my soul, this happen so long ago, now I have fallen from the heavens down with him, the one who haunts me in darken dreams, where I always hear the screams. I long for the day when I escape this life of this darkened place. All he wants is full control over me, so he tries so hard to enter into my mind, but he knows he cannot do such a thing, so he cuts me deep within my soul, and hunts me down into my dreams while I sleep, he makes me weep. He loves to watch me bleed and to see my heart bleed out like ink that pours into the sea, but most of the time, he loves to play games upon my mind. His words are like an old sad love song that keeps playing along, they never stop playing in my mind, that keeps cutting me so deep cast me in a place of true agony. My mind is filled with deep thoughts of so many plots,  where so many had got so lost, the tears that flow from my eyes, I cried a flood that never ends deep within, while Dark Angel cast on more sins. I was too young to understand why my life was never right in my own mother's eyes, no matter how hard I ever try, she would always make me cry, just like he who keeps haunting me in my sleep.
All she has seen was the dark side of me, this is what she would keep telling me. she called me her black seed, I was only two when I started crying out to my God. asking God to take this pain away, but this became my fate, I must face. I remember those painful words that seem to have no end. I don't understand why they even began. As I got older the pains had grown stronger, I would get down on my knees asking God, Please make the hurt come to its end, but they never did, they just got stronger deep within, I had to learn how to forgive, but never forget. I would cry deep in the night asking why did my own mother why did she not love me;
why did my father leave me like this?  I held on as long as I could, I screamed so loud saying I didn't ask for this, But I now hold a very big old mess they left me in. They faded into the night without any words of goodbyes, I just sighed with so many thoughts of WHY.
they never said a word to ease my pains. Every day this old pain
has given me so much rain that cast me into a place called darken dreams.

- Judy Emery © 1977
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery