Waking up with greyness
Losing my childish madness
I was once the jolly one
I was once the folly one
I was once pure and white
Fire of agony, ignite

Every day I find myself complaining
How did I get here?
When did I choose?
The person I have become
When did I let myself loose?
Losing my own right ways
Right in their own right
And choosing their self-righteous ways

Stuck in this conundrum
Often I wonder
They had their ways
But I had options too
Why did I let loose?
Why didn’t I choose?
Who is to blame here?
People who made decisions for me
Or me, who didn’t refuse?