It is May again; And this means you are coming back. You have registered once more for your territory in my aortas As if you never left, As if there was never a five-month ache Before the last beat Was heard again. You’re back just in time to celebrate The anniversary of our high school hookup That you expected me to find my way Out of On my own. Part of me likes you because you are In no way condescending. The other part wonders how you could Possibly think that my skin, That you touched, that I thought you knew, Could ever be malleable enough To be full one moment and empty the next. The hole you opened inside of me waxed and waned For months, And I found someone else to slow it, To fill it until it was still. But here you are again, Back as an echo, Reverberating throughout me, And here I am divided. Still alone; because it is May again, And this means that I wait until you decide You want to be back. You always do, but only in Bits and pieces, And you stack our memories together as stones, 3 piles high all around me, Dulling the edges so that I will not remember being made your Sacrifice the last time. I wonder if I should be worried that I Already want to talk to you every day again. I shouldn’t feel so lonely After six hours back with your words Not wrapped around me. I shouldn’t wear our conversations like Tattoos, and feel off-center when I cannot Touch what you told me. But it is May again, And no one is surprised. I am still alone, but Hope whispered that you told her You were on your way home.