So many thoughts swirl through my mind
I've been troubled now for quite a while.
But no one sees my darkest thoughts
As they hide in secret behind my smile.
Anxiety chills the warmest nights
Some I barely get to make it through
Disguised in public so they don't know
It helps to crack a joke or two.
A simple tear rolls down my cheek
My self-pity consumes my body
Yet people think my life is good
I’ve managed to fool most everybody
Like a rodeo clown, I mess around
And hope that nobody will see
But there's one person, I cannot fool
And that person, I know is me.