I burned myself this morning,
It felt good,
Not the burning,
But the feeling of something,
Something other than sadness,
other than loss,
It was like a sensation,
Like part of me had been,
Happy,
For once I had control over my pain,
Control over my response,
Cutting doesn’t do that,
Cutting is worse,
way worse,
It leaves a mess,
scars for everyone to see,
This, this is like the rest,
a scar that only I know,
Only I can see it,
Feel it,
I burned myself this morning,
It felt good,
I’m gonna do it again.