My past is scattered ashes
And I find tragic truth.
Do you have a clue
What does it matter dude.

I rose when in defeat.
I smoke and go to sleep.
My beauty hides inside.
No peep
I know the oceans deep.
Emotions running over
*** nobody noticed me.
Tormenting over me.
Hurricane enormity.
Making tears form into poetry.
I know I got this blessing
Step into the devils head
And learn your ******* lesson...



Chorus....
When this lullaby hits you.
Touch goodbye baby girl because I miss you.
Had to fix few.... Things.
*** there's issues with my mood ring
Dads becoming mommy.
Quite alarming.
But inside its not a new thing.
Noone truly knew me
Gotta keep on moving.
Baby daddys gone.
But mommy is the new me.....


My parents loved me always
Though not a perfect home.
Drugs. Self medicate.
And chaos.
Some ******* major holes.
Started smoking cigarettes
Just after 8 years old.
My body was an alien
It made me gag and choke.
Selling dope
At twelve years old.
Crazy way to cope.
We always stayed afloat.
Adulthood brought bags of coke.
The pain I crave the most.
At the same time.... hate addiction.
Came out as transgender.
To my kids st Christmas.
As God my only witness.
Never felt that full dimish.
Couldn't fix a single sentence.
My ex clipped out family visits.
The grinch just cancelled Christmas.
*** my gender switch.
The ***** can eat a bag of *****.
I'm ******* sick of this ****....


Chorus...
Baby when the lullaby hits you.
Touch goodbye baby girl *** I miss you.
Had to fix few... things
Issues with my mood ring....
Your dads becoming mommy
Quite alarming
But inside its not a new thing.
You gotta keep on moving.
Some times
You gotta find yourself.
But first you have to lose things.
Daddy may be dead.
But mommy is the new me....