I moan as the pleasure goes through me, He loves me, he said so. Thirteen is so much fun, I am so in love, he is so cute The passion of his body as he shares his love with me in me over me on the smooth top of the car.
I sob pitiful tears as I hold my hair back I try to throw up the moving in my womb It clings to life and wont let go. Holding on to my pelvic sides Body shivering Body retching No release as it gently survives
Oh my heart is broken The scalding hot bath numbs the isolation. I don't see my love any more, someone else has his love Still it wont release my womb from within It holds on to me clings to me claws at me as I feel him grow.
The embarrassment of my parents Mother cries bitterly, Father hangs his head in shame I cannot keep this "******* child" I will lose those alive I love So lonely So confused I must give up if I want their approval
The pinch of the needle as it enters my skin, The chair, the nurse, the forceps. I stare up at the florescent light that beats my body hurting me for the child within probing me cutting him Through the blur , Iām sure I hear a scream
The ache as I see my baby go No life, Just pieces of left over life His pain is gone he feels no more Free Unknown Incinerated
Antibiotics my health slowly restores My memory still at thirty one is torn would my son, who never was looks a little like my daughter who now is holding my hand loving trusting forgive me for my decision of say farewell