my brain feels different. not just today i think every day.... some days i dont hear the buzzing. so much. other days it;s like it wont stop SCREAMING. i see words fly past my eyes half finished thoughts just whip right by... i reach for them you know, id love to finish what i started but they just slip from my fingers and dive back below the surface. my thoughts, they like to torment me. i know what you;re thinking.. why dont you just dip your hand in the water and grab the silvery fish? i would but the water scares me. it's so dark underneath the glassy surface.. i feel like when i retract my hand it will be dripping ice cold sticky blood. tar. so you see, that;s why i just let them go. the fish, they know how to survive down there. in the darkness. i certainly do not. wait, but why am i talking about fish now? one thing to the next. so fast. do you think my brain is different today?