I wanna **** myself maybe
For letting fear become my pride
For not cherishing every moment Im alive
I get upset with me maybe,
For not letting go of the past
For holding on to your memories
And to your goodbyes
I want to flee far from here
To a place I feel comfortable to be myself
Cause Everyday I feel my body decomposing
Cause I dont live up to my expectations
Its killing me inside
Like that time you didn't hold me when I cried.