because in the english speaking lands: to have lived... and then to write a book... never is a life to be lived: in order to produce a book... somehow everything happens a posteriori...
no one writes anything: "informal"... all has to be lived prior... and then the crown - the book... to glue the pieces together... a book like a forgotten cinema of memory...
i have here... an autobiographical sketch... working from... doomsday rejects - six hundred... but working back to reading about the hellraiser movie... from screenrat.com...
because it wasn't christopher young's soundtrack... that was to be used... that came later... but... coil's: unnatural history II: smiling in the face of perversity...
gul'dan... sounds a bit like... doomsday rejects - six hundred... i will not... use the necessary... diacritical marks to summon the turks: for their advent of the balkans... teasing vienna...
the old continent breathes... while the new girth of a swelling of the birth of h'america is: loaded with burdens of its own making... for once... the world is of not concern for these people... iraq can fall asleep in its turmoil... afghanistan can patch itself up to the guard the Raj... Libya will burn wood once more... to light the fires to brush against a satisfying warmth come the dune nights of teasing metaphors of... siberia... the transition period from: ex azia: ex azoth...
nouns are seemingly cheap... no wonder the hebrews decided: to cover their former beloved in: tetragrammaton and ha-shem... emperor nero didn't see... it wasn't about a fire... a mythology of some prometheus... already a new mythology occurred... who stole the staff of zeus the blink sharpening of odin's plucked out eye: as... eaten by... huginn & muginn...
we are learning that some things... are best left... unresolved... i leave behind the hope for a romance of dreams with arabia... i have written these letters down on my hand... hours later i solved a sudoku and ascribed them... 2, 3, 4 and 7 status... 2 was the false h'eh (ה) mirror bound inverted... i guess the remaining letters were arabic... (ل) was 3... (el) (ك) was 4... (katta)... mirror mirror on the blank canvas... ⅃ - (ך) or the copernican gamma: Γ or (ר): the rest... and 7 became... (ز) zord...
in all the autobiographies you might read: in all the autobiographies of the "celestial" beings: none could match... Octavian Augustus... roddy mcdowall: mark anthony is dead... is that how one says is... it? the soup is hot... the soup is cold... mark anthony is living... mark anthony is... dead...
you don't read in an autobiography... a monument of incremental addition having taken place... take a harold norse: memoirs of the ******* angel... monuments to... a inch of snow! a cry for help of a stone... strapped to a... landslide! a truly democrastic detail! away from... the ego: emperor and life: that last colliseum's worth of an audience!
i had to finish the day off... by having a little bonfire... enough... to clear the way for 2 tonnes of soil coming tomorrow... and the grass... and the new shed... and a patch of felt... to measure up... losing a shadow... anything... absolutely everything! to escape the hideous formality of language... from each... and this day... to match: an escape from this day... ironing my father's shirts etc. in anger... teasing a clenched fist... against a wall to extract plums of hue on the knuckles... no... listening to jazz didn't help...
i started with shostakovich... oh hell no... i moved toward rachmaninov... nope... wayne shorter: ju ju? you ******* kidding me? infected mushroom - converting vegetarians... after that... i figured: just listen to the iron... pretend you tamed a dragon or something... jazz might have been the modus operandi of escapism of the beatnik poets... well... if you had to escape... music akin to... vera lynn... frank sinatra... leotard liberace... jim reeves... he does moon river... better than anyone... bobby vinton - blue on blue... jazz the bet... who the hell thinks of escaping when listening to classical music... probably anyone... who hasn't listened to... the meat & gravy of... what came out of... prog rock... attention span of listeners... escapism music... 1950s pitch-perfect pocket-load of the dream that could never leave the shores of a... dying embrace...
and then of course... there's the little bonfire... some slightly wet juniper branches... and drying... roots of a yucca... the white smoke... and walking into it and walking out of it... coming out stinking... suffocating... revived... baptised by the smoke and the smashing of mirrors never peered into...
minding to have this burning done... when the neighbours do not have any washing out to dry... a mini-event of democracy: retracted... bold: loaned... words... to cry and at the same time decry freedoms... to lick the fire would imply to have had a beard-trimmed...
escape? o.t.t. - younger brother... demdyke stair... and now coil... the soft moon... i could have wished to have escaped with jazz... if i were trapped by jim reeves... and classical music is... the base: not the bass... point of departure...
but i have had my bonfire... it did feel like... smoking a packet of cigarettes... but there was no nicotine... i saved 2 slingshots for now... and... a baptism of having walked through the burning of yucca roots and juniper... if a man like me would ever have the blessening of a yesod: a foundation... a throne... his throne would be a dead oak... and he would be hunched on top of it... looking to the hour where his shadow would tease the height of a mountain in the fountain of naked eyes that peer with... obnoxious scrutiny for: "truth" and... child-argue "dialectics"... for the crown: the keter? i can... fathom... the pain... of omniscience... mingling with... telepathy... after all... is it... so... unwelcome... one has to either suitor... the discomforts of a crown... with the comforts of the throne... or the comforts of the crown... with the discomforts of the throne... few: if they are not... ever managed to match: the discomfort of the crown with the discomfort of the throne... i am indeed working on... converting myself... back toward... how the new testament is not simply a greco-hebrew propaganda tool against the romans... blah blah... but... point being... how am i... to somehow... write in... any other... ha ha! helpfully provided tongue?! dig me from the trenches of... what you wish to usurp... and look how fiendish this will: per se... this per se that crowns itself above your omni- litany of ultimates! breeds! ha! convolvulaceae: morning glory... it will take... a ******* meteor to... rid your quest to vanquish rome... ancient or modern... you could... with... egyptian hierogylphics... with babylonian cuneiform... but... these letters: even i were to envision what you came to perform... the symbiosis found - your people: the enriched people... who are blameless... ask the greeks: they'll simply yawn... they'll sooner find the original... in line with a greco-cyrillic parody to amuse themselves of: how the slavs entertained communism that was tested on the mongols... and how... for all the progressive allure of "left": in the west.... blah blah... i can't undermine... the ALPHABET! for the worth of an idea... it's hardly: the same as... the standard rubric measure of spelling... the arabs find spacing a problem... between punctures of digital roman... it was always a problem...
the hebrews knew it... they didn't need to find the Ned or: keeping up with handwritten scribbles... the hebrew were waiting for the latin script men to abolish handwriting and come to terms with: letters = numbers = digits... not chinese ideograms... but no ******* fiver-river-flows of the greeks... the arabs tried forever... to imitate the weaving of the hand that was writing... cut them apart... crude... crude oil... about to be bull-whipped and litmus tested... yacht *****-boys...
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(that)... i can't undermine the latin text when i'm given no alternative to write in... glagolitic script? really? so what... bombard me with angry-albino-*****-цeppelins?! blitцkrieg my *** to what? hopes for the polish-lithuanian times... and the cossack uprising... that... romance... sort-of... novel?
what's being question in... zee vest? cheap ***** history novellas... less nomad and more undercover work... about to be subdued... or not... less the diaspora as work... and... waiting for the diaspora...
thus to the lottery of *******... the concept of... the gravure model... say... ai shinozaki... beside the crude base... page 3 milk cow **** of the eyes... and the otherwise: niqab blinking and touching in the dark... a blank a limp biscuit worth of phallus... the collab. of iggy pop and 'avid bowie in berlin... ms. porcelain... gravure models and... the joy of insinuation... **** as... the mona lisa efffffffff ffffffffect...
how... somehow: the display of feeding pouches of seranading... buttocks inverted: pouches of... **** is to be mis... categorized... as such: and not as such: cushions... better that i am deemed simply to exist... rather than have... any sort of life: abounding in me...
*** as an insinuation... not this... perverted third person: **** in the way sort of... "oops"... i much prefer the asiatic: nuance toward the credibility of any ****** encounter... the nearly squinting over the arabic load of make-up and excess of niqab... priest over pin-head... and much more... hovering like a noose... a halo... above the suffocating circumstance of the ditto-head...
that somehow the milk vessels are topsy-turvy: *****-**** one minute... and... 12" ***** looking to preserve their *** sit-on kumbayah for the... the last lost genius of the zodiac killer... i have pardonable proof... the crusades never took place... or never is the never of: finding... the philosopher's "stone": the antithesis of res cogitans... res vanus... the unthinking "thing"... the non-thinking... clues up horizontal... laying back: vertical...
i have to allow my shadow this much... space... paintbrush and canvas... and.... limits of a grief... one that anyone can succumb to... but: so few: fool-hearted devolve to express...
it's not that the language is so bothersome... but the **** is... has... reached a fever... the white fluid of a woman of body has been excavated far enough: what ****... what *******... what joke... what village bicycle... harem of the eire and the ******... what...
i like the affairs of the gravure idol... this to tease: this to taste... this to cleave to... this leads to unrest... because i am never... the third party: the culprit ******... better than a *** doll... and it makes you "think"... the european counter-brave... forward... come einstein-frankenstein... "ism"... some of these... gravure idols... they're not photoshopped... they're... genetically improved... aesthetics of man... losst count at 100,000 million... and ther are a billion worth of replicas... it's not that there's something cheap to concern oneself with... it's that... there's always room for improvement... they're not photoshopped... inclined with liquid dead... jelly confied... ***** wanks...
i much like... *** as an insinuation... rather than... being "date-*****" by an image... that ball load of phallus in the way of gratifying me from my one true: serial trace of metaphysical translation of: hunger... there's that... there's also... the concern for... a canary... and the cage and the wolf and the world that: just so happens... cried a privy demand for: being looted with one's intestines being... untangled and readied to compensate one's concern for making it an item: for clarifying: .... measure!
who is... "ralph phiennes" without... psychiatric membranes... without: prescribed... limitations of... chemical soups? the same as a john malkovich? who is... "ralph fiennes"? lord voldermort... but as an amalgam of... francis dolarhyde and... dennis "spider" cleg... what is also a bride & groom... of beckett and kafka... and... that...
one sometimes... would wish... to know... what one's prescribed medication are concerned with... and what... they're... not...
yes... this is enough; for the worth of a day: and now... a... towed.... today.