I remember when
someone broke in
and stole my heart
never saw it coming
it happened at the start
and a few months later
I got a call from you
saying someone got
shot and killed
at your new place
like a child
I thought it was a game
you slept that night in fear
while out at the bar I remained
to me that was the day
that my love went away
and to this day my heart
cries and screams
I should have been there
by your side
and put your mind at ease
to let you know
I care about you more than me
but now I'm stuck here
with this bad disease
crying won't complete
and words can't describe
how much I miss thee
and I've always wanted you
but your love does not come free
I hated things about you
because they're what I saw in me
that's why I have to learn to love
me and only me
and hope and believe
that one day
I can let you be
and I want to let you know
that I forgive you for everything
and the next time I see you
I'm giving you this letter
even if it's in a dream