better than drinking and listening to music... i forgot: "forgot" to become a... music nerd... a needle-drop: ant(h)ony fantano... a... john peel... linguo nerd: the tetragrammaton is like a bulging ego phallus... with moloch the... elephant's ****** depth of... the mariana trench... like landing on the ******* moon! yet to happen! i love music... but... apparently... not enough... the budget was ah... ha ha... stash of old records... some jazz... some *******... shotakovich... some... ah... no wonder... i turn on the radio and i'm freed from having collected... personal preferences... because... i stopped... demdyke stair... the soft moon... :wumpscut... the wooden shjips... bohren & der club of gore... gjeilo: the northern lights... christopher young: the hellraiser hellbound sountrack... peter gabriel... contra john debney... joshue redman... jazz... not... a thing for the internet's busiest musical nerd... yeah... rap was never... on the cards... musical "nostalgia"... knocking on marble: will the elgin ever... sing?! at least a song of: who they... belong to... because... who does... the rosetta stone... belong to? the party... most invested in deciphering it? perhaps?!
so much for not being a musical nerd... anthony... that's.... me toying with nerding: ανθoνɛ̄....
or.... αντoνɛ̄... serve me up a diet or radio... and i'll give-away my eclectic stash of... non-review... wardruna? heilung?! again... that's like... no concern / alarm... for the tetragrammaton "not being" an imitation - idea - that sort of behaves like... a fungus... a telepathic magic mushroom...
sings the praises to god: allah... jesus christ: hope it's not me... schadenfreude civility thoroughly brought forward... but... hides... the four letters... in a tetragrammaton: in ha-shem... and... yet the sparrows sing... the crows peck and croack... and there can be... some... sanctity in the affairs of man... a potency / a cognitive stimulus... because... what bogus story what myth is to be arrived at with a hebrew god that moved everywhere... and wasn't... this rock-hardened... odin presence... etc.
better than listening to music and drinking and smoking the ration of two cigarettes per day... the lionel nation podcast... talk radio... you have to... at some point... expand pop music... beyond and... therefore expand beyond classical music... jazz... retain a love for... people freely talking... and the drinking and the rationed smoking of cigarettes... i too have my freedom... but... i don't have an audience... in writing? in death-scribbling? i have eyes... i don't have ears...
i might conjure: a darting ogling: whithered eye "conudrum: roulette with eyes: the first one to blink gets a shot in the dark: or at a gambling shadow...
because it didn't really matter that i was standing in a cue to buy some Leffe brews at the supermarket today... and that there was a single white... blonde girl two metres before me... a single white solo mother and grandmother...
and a black couple... trouble... i was the size of the woman... and the man was... a chin in height: above / ahead of me... what a lovely sight... there was no racial antagonism: a black man was replicating "black": he was ******* a black woman and... hey presto! a black baby! what... a *******! lovely... sight! two black people well equipped with the proper translation of a hindu manuscript of the kama sutra!
it's good to know that tigers will only **** tigers... lions will only **** lions... that cheetahs will only **** cheetahs... i was creeping silent with: the black woman is the size of me... how did the colonial buggers size up their "intelligence" with that basic: ******: physical renown of superiority: and simply, "simply" catch these: because the experience of the slavs and the mongols: shrimp **** extraordinaire: typos...
it was just pristine... to see a black and a black woman and a black child... not me though... i have to come back to this masochism with a... ahem... "future" bride... the bride the mother-in-law towing a... ******* crucifix and an umbilical chord... wildened ivy keeping to bear hug the suffocation...
the goat blood and choke... i'm very happy for the "orcs" to have their status invoked... lost germanic peoples... somewhat celt... velsh... orc: from: out of africa... while the slavs surmouted the stereotype: ask the mongol... plenty of assumptions: race is a h'american "thing"... next thing you know...
is it so bad seeing a black man be in love with a black woman with a black child? can i take anything from a woodland pigeon ******* a woodland pigeon: a fox ******* a fox? cocktails galore! halfwits and nuanced *******: who's this? woodland elf... ottoman dwarf: pseudo-turk? the high-brow... merovingian... the danupe snippet: the rhine order? they were the ones... who discovered h'america... and... somehow... "by chance" also... rediscovered europe! h'americans re-discovered europe!
race baiting... the mongrel crude follow: suite... all are arabs! all are offered the stature of rajastan: afghanistan! copper-skinned: globalist... cinnamon... cumin / coriander skinned powder atooms...
all this life assured... all this life preserved... then some artifact from this realm of the crustacean-caucasian... not a cocky-asian in sight... a different mind-boggling... intro... duct.... ion...
beside this or that frankenstein: shtein or a lack: thereof... good for me that i'm not in the business of replicating an argument... or having... shaved open to not question... blank canvases of d.n.a. paint of a child... it's a good thing i don't have a child at my disposal: i wouldn't want it to ingest the... poison i've come to inherit from the world... and that's best: when raising children... to leave them lacking: in a wordly experience... but i'd come out as a psychopath psychoanalyst gimmick of jung / freud... an r. d. laing looking at some edvard hopper...
the russian solo project... the french: where is france... the duchy of warsaw and... the PRL? it's not so much playing the victim... but when... it took... as much time... to conquer poland... at the advent of world war II... by both **** germany and soviet russia... it took more time to conquer poland at the advent of world war II than it took to conquer france... says as much as: it doesn't say any more: than the least! colonial power: powdered high tier: trade-offs of... hair-gimmicks... bulletins of wigs...
this has been enough... i'm the former soviet satellite: east german... retardo phillipo prima perfecto... of: what argument one shouldn't have... this was an "argument"? and the west: is still the best! it's that... lesson in rhetoric... it's that lesson of: the general populace is guided by the peacock square loot of: pretending to fathom the godhead of civility: where... everyone... every... one... is wearing... the... crown!
who's being lectured... and who's... the protected "class" of citizentry? who's the token and who's to be made an example of? well... at such times... at such parodies of humour... the world does burn... but i'm not... going to succumb to a voice... that echoes: the populist poets of sycophancy... somehow! "they" now have a voice! yes... drunk from an ad hoc / post hoc populism! they have a voice, now... i don't like populist poetics... either neither right nor left leaning politico-poetics... riddling the ride of sycophancy...
and that i have drunk and... written this: square sober... that's my affair of conscience... here's some broken glass... here's a broken mirror... and here's xerxes... extinguishing his mind... asking for the sea to be whipped... the sea! if he asked for the lake to be whipped... genesis mirror... exegesis... sea... how can you whip something into submission... when a said thing only submits to chaos? putting a stick into a river... and asking it to turn around... the change the current... and somehow people still cite... and laugh at... nebuchadnezzar II... when... laughing at Xerxes is almost reserved for people with the audacity to usher a said: reference to the hebrew god: wet with tongue and saliva and... the gnashing of teeth: as if... taking a bite... of lamb sinew!