She sought my forgiveness
but I denied her
the one who I loved
had hurt me so much

She was the cause
reason for my discontent
for the metastasis
of the animosity
that was a tumor inside my being
malignant and growing

Love and hatred
dissolved in each other
so when she told me she was sorry
that she loved me
that she wanted me back
I couldn’t accept her
I wanted to punish her
for her to feel the pain and illness
inside me which I held her responsible for

But time goes on
my hatred faded
my love stayed intact
I came to find
I had only punished myself
hurt myself further
each time I time I pushed her away
I dug my pit deeper

Now I stand at the bottom
of my expansive crevasse
staring up at the love I once knew
and could still have
if I had only forgiven her when she first asked