Finally home, all alone Alcohol consumed me Pack a smokes beside me I'm in panic mode Tears flooding the carpet Turn on the bath to cry under water Screaming and bleeding thinking of you Trapped under a blanket Sobbing next to mama's pills I'm at the bottom of the world Missing the presents I bought for a girl Every memory is like a war That framed picture changed my feelings so I'm a lock my door I cant take it anymore This alcohol is my low key antidepressant I swear I'm not so ignorant Dear daddy I've been trying to change But I'm weak and vulnerable No one by me, nobody to hold me I miss the love I've once had. There is no going back. I use to improve out with mamas pills, slap them on my tongue to flirt with death I've got a date with depression so I'm spit them out and rest.