I’m struggling today
Just like I’ve struggled every day
Im struggling to find a way to be ok
Struggling to find the words to say

I thought of you this morning, this afternoon and in bed at night as I lay
The pain it comes in massive waves all hours of the day
The sleepless nights and horrific dreams are here to stay
I’m lost without you here, I’m not myself and I am not ok

I’m questioning so many things leading up to that awful day
Wishing I could go back and change some things
Say some things I never got to say

I love you mom, I always have and I always will. In my heart is where I keep you still