The day I met you my eyes were open wide
My heart was just a shell, nothing on the inside
I’ll never fall in love again, I said, A lie to hide behind
A love like yours I was sure I’d never find.
You came without a warning in my blind spot and since that day the light has shined.
I hope and pray we last a lifetime and you never leave me behind
Jul 12, 2021
Jul 12, 2021 at 2:41 PM UTC
I’m at the bottom of this bottle .. wishing I had never cracked the lid. The escape you were supposed to bring only came with pain and regret. I’ve lost so much and feel so alone.. I just wish I had them here and not the loss of what has gone. It’s as if 3 people died and not just 2 the struggle is real and none of this **** feels real.
Jul 15, 2020
Jul 15, 2020 at 7:34 PM UTC
The day was wet and cloudy
I took all of moms plants outside and gave them a little water
Then the sun shined blindingly bright for a moment then dimmed
As a white butterfly fluttered around her plants
She’s still here with me watching over me
And proud I haven’t given up
I feel her love surround me and hear her words .. you are so strong and you are my my sunshine when it rains. While I once was her sunshine she is now mine. She’s the light that keeps me going and the reminder that there is no time to waste
Jun 23, 2020
Jun 23, 2020 at 11:48 AM UTC
I’m struggling today
Just like I’ve struggled every day
Im struggling to find a way to be ok
Struggling to find the words to say
I thought of you this morning, this afternoon and in bed at night as I lay
The pain it comes in massive waves all hours of the day
The sleepless nights and horrific dreams are here to stay
I’m lost without you here, I’m not myself and I am not ok
I’m questioning so many things leading up to that awful day
Wishing I could go back and change some things
Say some things I never got to say
I love you mom, I always have and I always will. In my heart is where I keep you still
May 26, 2020
May 26, 2020 at 10:00 AM UTC
I still feel you here
I talk to you in my dreams
My world feels so empty without you near
I pray for god to wrap you in his arms
Something i didn’t do enough dear mother
None of this feels real
I’m going through the motions but my world is standing still
I know you are no longer in pain
But now all I feel is thunderstorms inside my brain
You said i was your sunshine but without you here
I’m struggling to find the sunshine through the rain
May 14, 2020
May 14, 2020 at 9:08 AM UTC
Heart be still
Mind stop this endless racing
Why keep chasing what only ends in chills
The panic
The terror
In the end it kills you
Mar 19, 2020
Mar 19, 2020 at 9:47 PM UTC
She’s hides behind the smile
But there’s sadness in her eyes
The ache deep down inside
She’s longing for happiness
Grieving the loss of love
Reaching for answers in the sky above
Mar 19, 2020
Mar 19, 2020 at 9:47 PM UTC
It’s in the quiet moments the reality seeps back in
She is losing her mother but isn’t sure when
She’s trying to be ok and just enjoy the time but that **** clock keeps ticking and she’s running out of time
The battle has been fought and there is no way to win
At least we’ll be together, mother and daughter, in the end
Feb 18, 2020
Feb 18, 2020 at 10:00 AM UTC
He gave me butterflies
Those baby blue eyes
You made me feel alive
A love that never dies
over time the butterflies began to die
The emptiness ..The loneliness ..no matter how hard id try
The pools of tears I’d sit and cry
Until that day you gave my butterflies away
Begging you to stay
There’s nothing left.. or so you say
He gave me butterflies and then he gave them away
Nov 29, 2019
Nov 29, 2019 at 4:04 AM UTC
I had a dream about you again
I couldn’t find my way home to you
I kept getting lost along the way it seems
I never did make it home
I woke up with tears streaming down my face .. realizing that in life I’ll never find my way back to you
After so much time has passed I still dream of coming home to you
Nov 12, 2019
Nov 12, 2019 at 10:55 AM UTC