I did you no wrong.
I devoted my body to make babies.
Our babies.
I risked everything to be with you.
I saw greatness.
I still do.
We had great moments.
We had moments when we could have taken over the world.
We blindly navigated raising two babies
We barely knew each other.
We barely knew ourselves.
But we ventured into the unknown.
You tried, I know you did.
I did too.
But you enforced standards on me,
you constantly reminded me of my failures.
You stopped seeing everything I did
because I stopped expecting you to notice and
step up.
You clung onto to this ******* who got all the girls in the past,
while the world around you changed.
I had no choice to be a mom,
and I did it.
I regret letting my weakness win and allowing
my past lifestyle to sneak into my new life.
I didn't need to do drugs.
I was a mother.
I had it all.
But we weren't happy.
Like rats in cage.
I refused to ask you to help me, to walk with me, to put the kids to bed...I hoped you would offer and you never did.
I should have expressed my needs.
We can't go back and I have no regrets,
I made babies with an exceptional specimen.
But know that I never cheated on you.
I believed in us.
I wanted it to work out.
Im eternally devoted to this family.
To our children.
To you.
Forever my friend.
Im sorry. I know you are too.