there are not four walls. there are no gates, nor hedges, nor bricks. yet, i find myself undeniably and demeaningly so trapped.
this state of drowsiness is not something i awoke to, but rather something i slipped into to get comfortable whilst awaiting death.
i wake and i fall as anyone else might, but i do not inhale the gusts of warmth, nor cringe at the bitter drops of sky against my tongue.
an empty shell is all i can imagine myself to be. these curiosities and these expectancies were once mine, but drifted away. their trail is buried in the ashes of an old dream.
i'd like more than anything to feel your gentle pulse against mine, but i determine this heart unworthy, since each beat has become a part of this fated hell.