A day without you...
I don't even know if you'll read this
And part of me is ok with that

The worst part is realizing the thing that you love
or the person
is what you're suffocating yourself with,
enveloping yourself in

I was drowning myself in you
And a day where I am me was what I needed
I prayed
I worked

And I let the soil
Wash away my clean

Tonight, all I want to do is smoke
And let it linger
Like your scent
Or your presence

I still love you
My feelings haven't changed

And last night, I was about 80% sure we'd be together
But we have to grow
And we have to help each other do that
But before that happens
There needs to be an understanding
And an absolute desire to move forward

I asked Our Holy Mother to envelope you in love
I asked for Christ to guide you
and me

And one day, we'll look back on this and laugh.
And I'll be 80% sure it was the right thing.