i am still awake as i have been this late for nearly a month thoughts swarm in my head like flies on a carcass
i think about the ex that i hate her lips as sweet as her heart was vile i think about the abuse the belittlement, the taunts
i think about the last time i went on a date how long ago it was how much fun i had how much i wish i could change how much i wish i could go back to
i think about love about ***, and romance how im not sure i can tell what love actual is, or if I've ever really felt it
i think about myself how im scared of coming out how i sometimes wish i could go back and forget how every time i get better i get sad about something different